There are days I feel ridiculous for not realizing my submissive nature until age 35. There have been a LOT of those days. How silly to be married for so long and then just up and decide that the entire structure should change! We have always been happy, great sex-life, everything as it should be so why in the world did I need to change things? I have pondered all of this for days on end.
This morning, yes just today, I gained an entirely new perspective. I responded to a post about WHY I would succeed in D/s, then hopped in shower. As I was washing my hair, it hit me:
How lucky am I to have loved and been loved so well for 15 years and then start something new with that same person!? Truly, what a blessing to have that beautiful foundation to build on! MR has always been my rock, but this has made Him more so. His strength brings me to my knees in awe. I have shared life, ups and downs, tough times, laughter, babies, everything with Him, but in these past months I’ve shared more of myself than I thought possible.
This is a whole new world, but it encompasses our old world and holds it dear. For the first time, I am happy with realizing my submissive nature so far into the game. The timing is perfect and I am so thrilled MR has embraced all of this, and me. Love, honesty, D/s, laughter, respect, mind-blowing sex…what more could a girl ask for?