During these past months, my whole entire world has changed. The way I think, the way I feel, the way I relate to MR, the way our household operates. It has changed in so many wonderful ways and I sometimes feel I have a hard time relating with the rest of the world now. I want to shout from the rooftops the benefits of D/s and BDSM, but of course I cannot. I have not told my close friends, I haven’t told anyone in my real life. Only Sir knows, it is our BIG secret, and while that is very fun, it can also be a little lonely.
I don’t feel the need to talk about my sex life all the time. Wouldn’t it be nice, though, to maybe talk about the honesty and the love and the harmony all this has brought? I want to share with the world, with my friends who maybe don’t have a strong marriage. One of my closest friends is going through a very hard time with her husband and I feel kind of guilty that MR and I have a great marriage. MR and I have always been close and happy, but this, THIS has taken things to a whole new level.
So aside from feeling a bit guilty for our awesomeness (giggle), I just don’t feel like I can relate to anyone! I mean, this life-changing thing is happening in my life and everyone just wants to talk about arguments and grocery store finds and blah blah blah. I’m over here like “HELLO!!! Can you not see that I am a whole new person?!”. I guess no one but Sir can see that, but I certainly feel that our D/s journey is changing every bit of me, making me into what I should’ve been all these years, making me a much better version of me.
For now, I will write this very disjointed blog (welcome to my brain) and relish in the fact the MR and I have this life that is in the early stages, but already so good. D/s didn’t save my marriage – it didn’t need saving – but it certainly has lifted it up higher than I ever knew existed.