…between boldly submissive and coercion?
…between offering a body, a tool and concocting a scene?
…between kneeling in subservience and kneeling in expectation?
Let me explain. I really want to kneel for Sir with the crop in my mouth. As a surprise, an offering. If He doesn’t want to play, I know some part of me will be disappointed but at the same time I do not expect anything. At all. I just feel a strong desire to show Him this, to show my love and faith and trust in Him in this way. I’m not quite sure how to put my feelings into words here, hopefully this makes a bit of sense.
My dilemma: is this “topping from the bottom” or can it be just what I desire it be…an offering??
Thoughts? Anyone? Bueller?