We will be

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I was not very good yesterday.
I got my feelings hurt, overly so, and I never rarely handle that well.

Anger is my go-to response because…
I guess because I feel stupid to be having the feelings and that makes me vulnerable. Sir straightened me out in no time, but I’m a bit embarrassed by my behavior.

So…today we will just be.
He is Dom, I am sub.
Nothing needs to get more complicated than that.
I will show Him my softest, subbiest self because today is all about feeding Him.

shygirl

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13 thoughts on “We will be

  1. Anger tends to be my go-to response for a lot of things. If not anger, then it’s withdrawal. I’ve been getting better (my Husband almost never gets angry, I sometimes envy the control He has over His emotions).
    I’m glad to hear that today will be a better day for you. πŸ™‚

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    • My Husband has great control too and rarely gets angry, which used to make me so irritated! I’m very envious…all of my emotions are quick & intense. I’m getting better…only by being more mindful…but yesterday was a mess! :/
      Today is good and I’m determined not to earn any pushiments today! Now funishment? I’m all about it!!

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      • Quick and intense. Yup that’s the perfect way to describe it! Me too.
        I hope you have a wonderfully enjoyable day. πŸ™‚

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  2. We are the opposite. He is more volatile than I am. I mark that up to his creativity and passion. We haven’t had a disagreement in years. Even then-I am not sure that counted as an argument. LOL. I am very responsive to the emotions of others,and readily internalize them-especially if they are directed at me. I can feel extreme guilt over something that intellectually I know that I didn’t do. He has become very careful with me in this aspect. Often, a look is all the correction I need. Sometimes I think it would be cool to be able to feel certain emotions – but just to a reasonable degree and not turned inward. Yep- I would like to get irritated by someone besides myself. πŸ™‚

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    • I irritate myself more than anyone else irritates me! As I internalize that even, I get upset & angry that I’m experiencing the emotions…and then turn it back outward. It is a mess! I’ve gotten better and will continue to work on it. I envy those with more control over such things. Isn’t it funny (great) that we pick partners that balance and complement?!

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    • Elle! I’ve missed you! Everything okay over there? I’m doing better, thanks. I’m not sure what the deal is with hurt feelings making me angry, why it always needs to be both.

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      • I missed you too and I’m finally back. My FIL passed away and the funeral was last week. It has been a very hard month, but we’ve come out ahead…marriage strong and D/s intact! Huge life events will put you to the test. We are so ready to move on to the next phase of our lives.

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      • Sorry to hear of his passing. Hope all of you find peace. We have had some huge, tough life events that turned into even bigger turning/growing/strengthening points for our marriage. Here’s to moving on and easier sailing ahead!

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  3. Sorry to hear you had a rough day….i hope today was better! I tend to react similar. And when I get angry…my eyes always overflow with tears. Embarrassing to be a crybaby…but its an automatic response. Then I shut down. Its fun being a girl right?!? Hugs girl!

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