How about some doing?

I’m tired of always trying.

No, I’m not giving up on anything.  In fact, just the opposite.

I simply need to do.

Why should I try so hard to be submissive? I already know I am submissive…even when I fight it… so I should stop trying and start being. (I’m pretty sure Mynx gets the credit for this!)

Why should I hope for Sir to realize something? It has been proven, time and time again, that He apparently cannot intuitively know what I’m thinking or wanting (dammit!)… so I should stop hoping and start talking.

*that comes off a tad bitchy doesn’t it? I don’t mean it that way. My Husband knows me well and there are plenty of times He knows exactly what I need and want. I’m just very good at covering those things up…He says it is my way to maintain control. I say…not all the time..but…well, He is probably right.

Why should I continue to wish for things to happen or get done? I’m very capable and I need to stop wishing, and just get it done or let it go.

So, I am done trying. It is wearing me out, physically and mentally. From here on out, there is only do. (please feel free to remind me of this the next time I hit the bottom)

***And since I hate that my last post was such a downer, I’d like to mention that Sir and I got everything worked out (at a snail’s pace, but still!) and we are good. Very good. More on that Thursday. 🙂

shygirl

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9 thoughts on “How about some doing?

  1. LOL Why can’t he read you mind? Don’t all the alpha-males in the books do that? I wonder the same thing about my Husband. I’m so much better at thinking than talking or writing. hugs!

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    • Right? How is it I am not living in a book? 😉 My brain is far too busy to be good at thinking…if only I could communicate through writing long-winded letters daily. Omgosh, my Sir would not enjoy that!! Hahaha.

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      • I think they would certainly develop more empathy for us…

        No, you’re right. If he had read my thoughts last night or this morning, he’d probably have run away screaming. I tend to think terrible things when I’m frustrated.

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  2. Yes! Exactly what you said! Ya know…its too bad we don’t get paid for being such great actresses! Maintaining control your Sir says? Well….doesn’t that just make total sense. I will have to ponder this one some more! Maybe have an epiphany or two. And a glass of wine to help the thinking process!

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  3. Being and Doing is the title of an acting book that was required at the theater school I attended. I did a post about it a while back. Little by little as you take on the attributes of your submission you start to transform into the totality of who you really are. Consistency is a major key. As for the mind-reading…I bet all our Sirs are similar yet I guarantee they pick up on it when there’s real trouble. While far from a mind-reading, my Sir has that sense when I’m in real trouble. Thankfully it does not have to get activated too often.

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