Thinking [boxes] Thursday


I would say that makes sense, but here’s the thing:  I kind of like routine.  I do not like monotony – I do like to switch it up, but within the safe confines of my routine. I realize that may sound a little crazy, a little impossible, but that’s how I am most comfortable.  A basic routine… very general… with many variations inside of that big ol’ box of comfort.


Sir, however, keeps me teetering on the edge of my comfort zone.. and often pushes me right on over.  I was recently given a task I thought I would not be able to complete.  I may have cried a little bit and I definitely had a lot of anxiety over it.  In fact, I went so far as to tell Sir I just couldn’t do it.  I was swiftly informed that wasn’t even an option.


He said “Rise my beautiful girl.”  (swoon…)  After words like that, how the hell could I not comply?  And so I did.  I completed the task with red cheeks, shaky hands and more embarrassment than a person should be allowed to feel.  Even more than that, though, I felt pride and relief that I was able to overcome those insecure feelings and just get it done.  I fought through it and I tried my best.  I haven’t gotten any feedback just yet, but I feel pretty good about the job I did.


As Sir keeps pushing me outside my box of safety, the lines blur more and more.  Soon enough, I imagine the box will disappear altogether and then where will my safety lie!?  I actually know that answer: with my Husband!  He has always been my safety and my comfort.  I see now that the box has only served as a place for me to hide and I want it gone.


So, for my Sir, my Husband, who has always been there to push me and to catch me – I am forever indebted!  Truly, I am not the boss (still working on that bracelet) and never want to be again.  He knows what he’s doing.  He knows, better than I, what I need.  Sir brings out the best… the MOST… in me and I will always do my utmost to rise for Him.





never stop learning: 8 things

I have taken a little break from writing on here because… well, really just because I’ve been quite distracted!  Despite those distractions, or maybe because of them, I’ve learned a few things as of late.  Thought I’d share:

1.  When your cheeks get hot (on your face, people!), they turn red. This is called blushing.  The discovery that you blush a lot is shocking because up until this point, you thought you had some sort of control over this reaction.  You do not.

2.  If you open up a can of worms, be prepared for those worms to become the topic of conversation at any given time.  It could be at breakfast, a family birthday party, or frequently, on the sofa while playing video games.  Talking about these worms will probably make you giggle and blush (see above) – and give you more than a few pants problems.

3.  Riding indoors on a bike trainer makes the business region go a little numb, followed by pins and needles – which might possibly be a tad enjoyable.

4.  Taking naked photos is a great motivator when you just don’t want to do all those damn crunches and squats!!

5.  Being comfortable in your own skin, with the body that you have (even for just a few stolen moments here and there) is weird… and tear-provoking… and just a really nice way to feel.  I envy those that feel that way most of the time.

6.  It IS entirely possible to be horny 24/7, for weeks at a time, no matter how much sex you have.

7.  When you want to write, but cannot find the words, lists work wonders.  Write what you know.

8.  Happiness begets happiness.  Seriously.  Happy thoughts make happy subs make happy Doms make happy children make happy homes make happy days make happy lives.