nothing everything

Unsure and wary.
Words censored.
Afraid.
Feelings swallowed.
Memories unacceptable.

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Open and free.
Complete honesty.
Scared
Biding my time.
Bleeding my heart.

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Up and down.
Yes and no.
Words…
The lock and the key.
The end and the restart.

~shygirl

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10 thoughts on “nothing everything

  1. “Say it before you run out of time. Say it before it’s too late…” i’ll keep that in mind when the words i want to say are screaming in my head but don’t find their way out of my mouth.
    Another lovely post, thank you so much.

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  2. When I read this, I asked M if I talk a lot. Because it often feels like I do (our perceptions are often much different, aren’t they?). He said….you have a lot to say, and that’s different than talking a lot.

    Anyway, I have a lot to say, lol. I’m not one to hold back, and that has caused me great difficulty. I struggle with knowing when I should or shouldn’t.

    When t comes to my own feelings, the times I truly have trouble are ones when o feel shame. That runs deep, and is so fragile and vulnerable. But I always just say it, with M at least, and more often in general. It takes its power away, by calling it what it is, I think.

    I’m happy you’re in a good place. And I guess that was a long winded way of saying I understand the love/hate thing with communication. 💜

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    • I’ve asked my Husband if I talk too much and His response is always “well no because you don’t talk JUST to talk”. I have such a dichotomy when it comes to talking, to the general public, I’m quiet (hello, shygirl is fitting!) But to those close to me, to my heart, I have the worst time of knowing when to hold back my words, good and bad. I’m working on a post that explores this a bit more because recent changes/developments (good ones!) have really brought issue to the forefront. I have feelings darn it, and I want to share them! But is there a line?! ACK.
      Anyway, I love your comment and always, your input! I totally get the shame thing – and perhaps that has something to do with my love/hate with communication.
      Thanks, Kay. You always make me think! 🙂

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      • Can’t wait to read it! I’m very similar, in that with those I’m close or the ones I love, I talk and talk. I’m often at odds with when to say things, not if, necessarily. Meaning….us it too soon? Will I scare them away? Things like that. I’m the one who will say what others won’t. I appreciate that in return as well! Some people don’t.
        Thank you! You make me think, too.

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      • Yes! I’ve said almost the exact same about the when and the scaring away in the post today! WP is acting up, though. I appreciate when others can say the things, too, but it’s not all that common.

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