I sink to my knees and lose myself in you.
Your needs are the only thing I focus on.
That is how it is supposed to go, always
But sometimes, I am impatient
You leave me waiting and my mind ramps up
frustration and sadness usually come first
followed by doubt and insecurity
I am so disappointed in myself
Internally scolding and berating
If I cannot do this, can I even BE this?
I focus on my breath
Count it in, count it out
Pleading with my mind to just be still
I close my eyes again, rest my hands
Please let everything fall away
Just be me, just be His
He tells me I am a good girl
All is right and I know
Even during the struggles,
I AM this.