thinking [this moment] thursday

This moment

Right now

The pain nearly unbearable


Being pushed


Take another

Safeword on the tip of my tongue

After the next one

I’ll blurt it out


One more

Sinking into it

Wondering if it’s too much

Say it!

The tears flow

He finally speaks

Good girl

I love it when you endure

For me

My words dissolve

Mind blanks

Impact, pain

Spreading heat

Pleasure, love


Infinite connection

Two souls together

Giving, taking

This moment


Happy Thursday!! ~shygirl 


[not] thinking thursday

I don’t want to be me. 


I ache to be nameless, 


Empty my mind, 

drop the worry…

Let me be nothing. 

Because really, 

that is everything.

Happy Thursday. 


thinking [bead advice] thursday

When on a quest for the holy grail that is anal beads, there are a few things to keep in mind:

1. Seams are NOT good. Oh sure, to the finger it feels like only a slight disturbance, a barely noticeable line. However, stick those suckers where the sun don’t shine and that little seam feels like a hacksaw. I’m into pain, but not like that!

2. Rigidity between the beads. Too hard and you’d be better off using a fun dildo. Too stretchy, and you will probably just obsessively worry it’s going to snap! 

3. Size does matter. I like some graduation in my beads. Or even all the same decent size would work, too. But jumping around willy nilly, from marble to ping pong ball size, makes too little sense for me to even enjoy. 

4. It all gets very slippery. Trying to hold on to, and insert, a slippery ball can be an adventure all its own! Be prepared for laughter and slipping.

5. Numbers. Just because there are eight beads on the strand, does not mean all eight need to go up your ass. Maybe you like a just few, or six… Whatever your number, it’s fine! Go with what feels good.

6. Relax. As always with anything anal, nothing is going to make a pleasant journey inside if you are tense. Chill out (and a little pushing out helps too).

I’m still on the prowl for my ideal beads, but with each set purchased, we get a little closer to finding them! I’ve been doing anal for a few decades and sometimes things just don’t work – plugs, beads, toys, dicks – can all be a test of patience and extensive trial and error. What fun it is to experiment! Around here, we call that science! 

Happy Thursday!

For science!