I am easily overwhelmed.
I am often overwhelmed. Sometimes, this feeling comes as a horrible, crushing weight that I cannot get out from under; a weakness that I’m ashamed of and makes me angry.
Other times, this feeling presents itself as moments of pure love. In those moments, I cannot give enough, I cannot take enough, I cannot do either fast enough. In those moments, I am overwhelmed with need and desire. In those moments, I just want to soak up the love but when I do, it is all too much and not enough…my brain cannot keep up. I cannot hold all that emotion and it can be a little scary.
I begin to drown in the love, in the Dominance. I drown in Him and I want to keep sinking. Sometimes, I hit that quiet abyss and pray that I can stay there forever. I marvel at the overwhelming feelings that hold me down yet lift me up. Tears spill over, breathing is not an option, and time stands still. I become part of that ocean and then I disperse amongst it.
Of course, I must always gather myself and drift back up… gulping as fast as I can, taking as much as I can. I want to swallow it all, but a girl’s gotta breathe. When I break the surface, I am content – knowing that I am loved, hoping that I love enough. Wanting so much for Him to feel all of this, in His own way. I hope sometimes He drowns like I do. I hope I overwhelm Him.
Because I know for certain that being overwhelmed can be a strength and a blessing.
Amazing! I dream of this someday….
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I love to read your posts!!!
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Awwww, thank you.
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This is the only kind of drowning I would ever be happy to experience!
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For sure! Normally, I hate that drowning feeling.
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Beautiful imagery on everyone’s blogs tonight! Love this post!
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Thanks.
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Beautiful! This really touched me (one of those times when I can completely feel your words)…after today….I was so overwhelmed with stress, and i was/am angry at myself for succumbing to it …now I need to be overwhelmed by him….taken under
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Thanks. Hope he took you under.
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Not yet….I crashed at 9:30 last night! Maybe tonight! Hopefully tonight!
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Gathering yourself back together… This is what makes you a great sub!
LK
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Easier said than done, sometimes, but yes!! 🙂
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