It’s been a minute but this time I’m not going to check to see how long or apologize for my absence.
We are old friends, this blog and I, so I can just pick right back up as if no time has passed.
I’m still here.
Sir is still here.
D/s is still here, but I’ll tell you it looks quite different a decade in. Sometimes, that’s good and we run like a well oiled machine. But sometimes, it’s not great, I won’t lie. I can’t lie. On my own blog?! That would not feel right. So where are we right now?
I guess we are somewhere in the middle of good and not great. The love is there. The fun sex stuff is there. But the anticipation is missing. The time is missing. The constant edge is missing. For me.
It should all come back here and there, before it slips away again, but we are living real lives with a real family, real jobs, real shitty friends, real sadness, real issues. Finding the balance between the realness of everyday life and the ideal way I’d like the D/s in my life to look, has been a real struggle. For me.
Today I need a friend and there’s just no one. Sir is working and that’s really the end of the friend list. It’s alright though because He is on his way home now!
I don’t even know if any of my old blogland friends are still around here (I haven’t logged in for ages) but if you are, I hope you are well. I miss reading, I miss the chats, I miss writing, I miss… A lot right now.
Happy Monday, though!
~ shygirl
serenity through submission 