thinking [made for this] thursday

I am made for this.

Some days I forget that. I forget that my only freedom is through submission. I fall back on past versions that could only rely on myself. I feel embarrassed and ashamed. I chastise myself for not being stronger or for not being more timid. I rail against direction and instruction because I focus on the little changes I don’t like. I forget to build up the positive. I forget why I am how I am. I forget who I am.

Today I’m digging deep. I know that I am Yours. I know that You are mine. I know that submitting is strength. I know that holding grudges, no matter how small, only holds us apart. I know that D/s is the way, our only way. I know that consistency doesn’t mean monotony and that change is inevitable and beneficial. I know that life is good. I know Your love.

Never doubt.

I was made for this.

-shygirl

thinking [take me home] thursday

The days filled with flirting expectation and unabashed want.

The fluttery stomach and risque texts that cause a deep blush.
The tasks that encourage, invigorate, and remind.
The demanded photos that require time, thought, and plenty of privacy.
The submissiveness that seeps from every pore and fuels every breath.
The evenings filled with stolen touches and handsy hugs.
The videogames and shows infused with knowing glances and sexy awareness.
The hidden rope or plug and whispered words.
The barely-contained desire.
The eagerness that demands an early bedtime.
The wetness that leave no room for doubt.
The control required to follow instructions, to hold position, to wait.
The belt, the flogger, the loopy, the whip.
The increasing intensity, the heavenly pain.
The kisses that are too much, but not enough.
The steady rhythm, the fusing of bodies.
The forgetting, the giving-over, the floating, the release.
The Dominance that feeds the submission.
The soul. The life. The love.
All of this is all that’s needed.
This is home.

thinking [subtle] thursday

What a funny thing, when His Dominance overwhelms me in the most unexpected situations.

He doesn’t even know I’m watching:

Our new nephew is in His outstretched arms. The babe fits perfectly, head in Sir’s big, capable hands, body stretched on His forearms. Sir is talking to the baby, and babe calms watching Sir’s face.

Simple. Easy. A powerful scene, and so very sweet. The two so serene, lost in each other for a moment. As if Sir commands this child’s attention and will accept nothing less than peaceful contentment.

I watch from the side, feeling that same content but more…. Feeling owned, feeling extra subbie. His Dominance quietly radiates throughout the space. I don’t quite understand why this subtle interaction brings me to my figurative knees. But I do not dwell on it, I breathe and bask in the warm fuzzy feelings of a perfect moment.

Everything is clear.

I am so proud to be His (and thrilled that He is mine).

Happy Thursday­čĺ×

~shygirl