I don’t want to cause the drama.
I don’t want to make issues where there are none.
I don’t want to question everything.
I don’t want to feel so inadequate.
I don’t want to disappoint.
I don’t want to be disappointed.
I don’t want to expect.
I don’t want to wonder.
I don’t want to explain.
I don’t want to ask.
I don’t want to be insecure.
I don’t want to be jealous.
I don’t want to be needy.
I don’t want to be ugly.
I don’t want to crave.
I don’t want to teeter.
I don’t want to be afraid.
I don’t want to hide.
I don’t want to run.
I don’t want to pretend.
I don’t want to be weak.
I don’t want…
I don’t want to be the girl who always has an issue.
I don’t want to be the girl who drains.
Now what? I’ll stop!
I will figure out a way to control these jumbled thoughts of mine.
I will try to ignore these bad feelings when they threaten to take over. Why? Because I have nothing to really complain about. In our 17 years, my Sir has never let me go – He holds on tight. Maybe sometimes, I just need a little tighter, and maybe that’s okay.
I’ll start now. I will take it day by day. But for today? I’m going to rock this awesome life and live in a way that makes my Husband proud. Hell, I’ll live in such a way that makes me proud!
I am submissive and I am tired of creating useless battles in my head.
I will figure it out. I will change. I will …
Happy Weekend!!! ~shygirl